JAKE
2 Feb 2007 - 8 Dec 2014
The absence of
greeting, booming bark, with dancing tail
massive white paws loping across wood floor
powerful head rearing up from underneath my arm, touching nose to nose
ever foul breath, familiar
The absence of his benevolence.
No spiritual wisdom yet, only emptiness.
A roller coaster of compassion for myself and self-recrimination.
Many people share with me their suffering not only with grief itself, but with judgments upon themselves for not grieving "the right way."
I preach that there is no right way.
Today I live in that web,
and I have only just begun.
8 comments:
Oh oh. This post is so powerful, sad and honest. Thank you for it, for sharing Jake with us, and for opening your blog back up to the world...
Thanks so much for the kind words, Chris.
Oh my, rest in peace dear Jake. Thank you for sharing Melissa. Our thoughts are with you and your family. MLJJ
Hi Melissa. I noticed, when I came over to be with the boys on Friday, that Jake didn't "greet" me at the door. The boys didn't know where he was. Now I know, with sadness. I wonder what dog heaven is like. Howard
Thanks so much, Leslie and Howard. Jake was actually still very much alive on Friday, just was at some beloved friends for the weekend as I was away with the girls. Unfortunately he passed away suddenly and unexpectedly in the middle of the night on Sunday. One grace was that at least I was there with him when he passed.
Damn it. So sorry. Jake was wonderful.
He sure was wonderful...thank you for your kind note, Laura Jean--I'm glad you got to meet him those few times he was with me at the shop...
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